Monday, January 11, 2010

Chapter 44

a/n Would like to thank my wonderful friend and Beta, Lillie Cullen who worked her magic with this chapter!!


I was thankful that there was no sign of Carlisle when we returned home. I didn't want anything to put a damper on our magical evening. We would have liked to have shared our news with Esme, but she had left a note for us that Rosalie wasn't feeling well and she'd gone to their house to see if she could help out.

I showed Bella the note, and a slow smile spread across her face as she realized we had the place to ourselves. No need to pretend, no need to be on edge. For tonight, it was just Edward and Bella. If just for one night, I wanted my fiancée to feel at home. It felt good to be able to call her that at long last. I hesitated for a moment, not sure I wanted to let her know I was in on this particular secret of hers and my mother's, but ultimately decided that it was worth it. I wanted her to know that I knew her secrets and I was okay with it. I only wanted her happiness.

I grinned wickedly and opened the freezer, digging for the tub of ice cream I knew would be hidden in the back. Bella's jaw dropped open, but I didn't give her a chance to ask as I grabbed two spoons, took her by the hand, and dragged her laughing into the living room.

We unceremoniously plopped onto the sofa, and I put some random movie on the TV, then pulled her shoes off and put her feet squarely on the coffee table. I followed suit, then threw a blanket over our laps before cracking open the ice cream. I scooped a big spoonful and held it up to Bella's mouth. She eyed it hesitantly and then looked back at me, checking to make sure I wasn't setting her up, I assume, before she closed her eyes and opened her mouth to accept my offering. Something about the expression on her face went straight to my cock. I delicately placed the spoon in her mouth. My breath caught in my throat when I watched her pretty, pink tongue curl under the spoon before her perfect lips enveloped the spoon. Bella moaned and I had to adjust myself beneath the blanket.

I watched enraptured as Bella savored the treat, her throat rippling erotically when she swallowed. When she opened her eyes, there was a fire there I wasn't sure I'd ever seen before. Bella took the ice cream and spoon from me, and then got up to straddle my legs before feeding me a bite of my own. I couldn't tell you if the moan that escaped from my chest was from the ice cream or from Bella's close proximity and intimate position. Bella shocked me when she bent her head down and licked a little ice cream that hadn't quite made it in my mouth.

I buried one hand in her hair and pulled her hips to me with the other, turning her teasing into a scorching kiss. It was so different than our kisses in the beginning, where it was all about me taking and her submitting against her will. Now I could feel her active participation, her passion. She was enjoying it, maybe even as much as I was. I could only hope.

I struggled with my self-control, my hands finding their way under her blouse to caress the creamy skin on the small of her back. Bella responded by grinding against me. There was absolutely no sign of 'Bella Barbie' anywhere to be found. This was Bella, my Bella, actually wanting me, and taking charge, showing me with her every movement that she desired me. I slid my hands under her bottom and squeezed her cheeks, pulling her closer, thrusting against her to show her I desired her just as much.

Bella gasped and stilled her movements. I pulled back from the kiss to look in her eyes, my hands flying to hold her face. Had I gone too far? Had I scared her? I breathed a sigh of relief when her hooded eyes told me I did not. She pushed my head into the back of the couch with the force of her kiss and I was lost. Bella's lips traveled along my jaw line, pausing to nibble on my ear before blazing a trail down my neck. Her soft tongue swirled around the hollow of my throat. I closed my eyes and moaned, running my fingers through her hair.

I quickly stood pulling Bella up with me. She wrapped her legs around my waist, burying her face in my neck. I could feel her playful nibbles on my neck as I climbed the stairs to our room; all thoughts of movies and ice cream long since forgotten. I kicked the door shut behind us and carried her into the bedroom.

I placed her on the bed laying on top of her as our lips fused together in another scorching kiss. We rolled until Bella was lying on top of me. I rubbed my hands down her waist to cup her firm bottom as I gently sucked against her collarbone with my lips.

She slid her body against mine as she kissed my neck and continued lower, sliding onto her knees between my legs, unbuttoning the top two buttons on my shirt and kissing and licking the newly exposed flesh. Soon she had unbuttoned my shirt completely, her fingers running up and down my chest, her nails skimming over my nipples, causing me to hiss with need.

When Bella began undoing my belt, it was my turn to panic. I stilled her hands. "Bella, no," I whispered, hoping it didn't sound like a command. She looked confused, maybe even hurt. "I don't want you to feel as though you have to do... that." The confusion melted away and was quickly replaced with what can only be described as a wicked grin.

"I know I don't have to, Edward. I want to." Bella swatted away my hands away. I lifted my hips to help her remove my slacks and boxers, then grabbed a couple of decorative pillows and held on to them for dear life. If she wanted to do this for me, then I would let her. I'm no fool after all, I know the pleasures Bella can bring me this way. But I was determined to be a passive participant. I would not hold her head, grab her hair or guide her strokes. And I most certainly would not thrust into her mouth, no matter how much I wanted to.

Those thoughts almost became a mantra, repeated over and over in my mind as Bella took me into her mouth and began working me. I thought I knew what this experience would feel like before. I had no idea the difference love would make. The way Bella lovingly caressed my balls; teased me by taking just the head between her lips and flicking her tongue around it, drove me absolutely mad. My neck muscles were so tight they felt like they would snap at any moment. "Bella! Oh God!" I grunted, turning my head to the side and snapping my eyes shut as she continued torturing me in the most exquisite way possible.

I felt her smile around my cock and I couldn't help but look down at her, only to find her looking up at me. She was smiling, obviously happy at the reactions she was getting. I was almost stunned to find she was truly enjoying this. Bella took that moment to thrust her head downwards, taking all of me in, until I felt my cock bounce against the back of her throat. I arched my back, struggling more than ever to keep still, and Bella hummed a chuckle which rippled over my sensitive flesh. "Sweet Jesus!" How had I ever been content with just having her service me against her will? Bella had shown me how much I was missing emotionally, and now she was showing me how much I had been missing physically, how much more wonderful physical pleasure could be between two people who loved one another and wanted to share their love this way.

Bella soon found a rhythm she was happy with, moving her hands in sequence with her mouth, flicking her tongue around the tip and scraping the underside lightly with her teeth. I felt myself swelling and knew I wasn't going to last much longer. I wasn't sure what to do. Do I stop her? Do I warn her? Would she want to continue, to swallow? I could no longer make such assumptions.

I opened my mouth to speak when Bella pulled away, a slight smirk on her face because she knew as well as I did how close I was to coming undone. She slithered back up my body, kissing me again.

"You like that," she said confidently before kissing me, licking my lip. I opened my mouth to her and she took control of the kiss, deepening it, tugging at my hair as she did.

"You are wearing entirely too much clothes. I want to see you. Touch you. Taste you. Will you let me?" Bella nodded and I slowly removed each article of clothing, worshipping every square inch of her body as I went. I guided Bella down so her head was resting on the pillows and positioned myself between her legs. I bent down and placed a chaste kiss on her soft, pink nether lips. Silently, I prayed to God for forgiveness for all the injustices Bella's body and soul had suffered and thanked the heavens that Bella still saw it fit to share herself with me in this way.

I took a deep breath, taking in the heady smell of her arousal. She smelled so good, it was intoxicating. I reached out and tasted her with my tongue, swirling it around her clit while I teased her entrance with my finger. I pleasured her slowly, dragging it out as she did me, pleased when she had no problems thrusting her hips towards my mouth, grabbing my hair and begging me for more, which I gladly provided.

It took a while for her to orgasm, but I was relentless and when she came, moaning my name, I lapped up every last bit of her juices, stretching out her pleasure for as long as possible until she tugged at my hair, urging me upwards. I kissed her thigh, then her soft stomach, and the sweet expanse between her breasts, before shifting to the side, prepared to take her in my arms and cuddle her until we fell asleep.

Bella had other ideas. She tugged at my arm, clearly wanting me on top of her, but I couldn't do that. If my cock, hard again and throbbing almost painfully, were to come anywhere near her sweet apex, my self-control would shatter like eggshells. I kissed the soft spot below her ear and squeezed her to me, but didn't budge.

"Bella," I whispered to her. "I can't. I won't be able to stop if we go any further."

Bella turned to me and kissed my lips. "I don't want you to," she whispered back. I pulled back to look in her eyes. She was biting her lip, trembling slightly, and her eyes were no longer fierce. It wasn't lust clouding them over, it was love. Pure, sweet love.

"Are you sure, Bella? We don't have to do this if you're not ready," I reminded her. It had to be her choice, her desire.

"I'm sure, Edward. I love you, and I know now that you love me, too. I want to share this with you. I'm ready now." The tears welled in her eyes, and mine as well, as I shifted and settled myself between her legs, kissing and caressing her gently for a long time before lining myself up at her entrance.

"This is going to hurt at first, my love, but I promise I'll make you feel good." Bella nodded and I entered her slowly, groaning from the feeling of her wet, velvety warmth surrounding me. When I reached her barrier, I paused, wrapping my arms around her tight. "I love you," I whispered in her ear before thrusting forward, breaking through her barrier and fully sheathing myself inside her. Bella couldn't hold back the 'Oh!' as the pain swept through her. I held still, caressing her hair, trying to soothe her, whispering over and over how much I loved her. When the trembles subsided, Bella kissed my cheek.

"I love you, too. I'm okay now."

"You're sure?" Bella nodded and moved her hips to show me she meant it.

Slow strokes.

Gentle strokes.

Loving strokes.

This was not sex. This was on an entirely different plane from sex. This was the sweetest, most spiritual moment of my entire life. Bella and I were truly one. We took our time, exploring this feeling, how the slightest of movements altered and heightened each sensation. The heat built slowly. After a while, Bella wrapped her legs around my waist, allowing me to hit that spot deep inside her that ignited our passions. Her muscles clamped around me, forming an even tighter hold and I couldn't hold back any longer.

The speed of my thrusts increased and I reached between us to massage her clit, hating the space between any portion of our bodies at that moment, but wanting, needing, Bella to come with me. We tumbled over the edge together, clinging to one another for dear life as our orgasms overtook us.

When we had caught our breath, I moved to my side, bringing her along with me. We stayed joined, not wanting to lose that connection. I pushed her sweat drenched hair back from her beautiful face and kissed her eyelids, her nose, and her chin before kissing her goodnight and telling her once more how much I loved and adored her. I had never slept so good as I did that night.


  1. ummmmm no mention of a she gonna get prego before carlsile pulls the visitor stunt???

  2. Fanning myself right That was completely unexpected, but really worth it. Bella giving herself willingly to Edward and now he understands the difference in feelings between what was taken from Bella and what she gave out of love. I have a feeling Carlisle will be pissed though.

  3. WOW! I so did not see that coming but in a perverse way, which lets be hoest is the only world Carlise lives in, this will make carlise mad. Hopefully mad enough not to want her anymore....

  4. Wow not what I expected, I'm glad Bella can trust Edward and that they share a amazing moment. I'm just worried of the aftermath and Carlisle infatuation...update soon

  5. I hope Carlisle is mad enough to lose interest, but I would highly doubt that! Now he'll just want revenge as well. But bravo to Edward for appreciating the difference that love makes--I think his transformation has been complete. Kudos to Bella for that. Now, no condom? Hmmm...

  6. Great chapter, I can't beleive that happened, but I am glad it did. I am worried about what will Carlise do now that this has happened.

  7. Oh, I am so happy for the lemon, this was great. So much better with the love. And Edwards pov, yay!! Noticed no condom though.... Uh oh....
    Awesome update, as usual!!

  8. Well that was unexpected, but what a treat. And they're both in love -- so awesome!!! I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop with Carlisle...

  9. Oh wow! Totally and completely...WOW! So will she get preggers now? I hope not..knowing Carlisle he'd probably go nuts! That was great! Can't wait for more!

  10. awww. So sweet. :) I kinda wonder what theladykt was wondering, too, about the condom thingie... but it was still really sweet and nice. I'm also kinda worried about someone coming home and seeing the ice cream downstairs and making a big deal...

  11. Totally unexpected. Thought for sure they would wait until they were married. Shit! Carlisle is going to be pissed! He will consider her damaged goods and will probably try to take her still.

  12. ruh-roh
    no condom...and they left that tub of icecream there...

  13. Your story is really unique and I feel the emotions that come with it. Everything is so suprising that I don't know if them making love before being relased from the clutches of Carlisle is going to hurt them more. After all, Carlisle or the visitor can take advantage of her now. It's like she's no longer protected. But even then I guess they could still take avantage of her like James did. I hope Carlisle gets what he deserves along with his extended family. I know you won't disppoint since at first we were thoroughly pissed at Edward and look how far he's come. Once again love your story and I hope that Bella can tell Edward her secret before it's too late. After all, he along with his brothers and mother can do so much now. Technically he doesn't even owe the "price" he paid for Bella anymore. She's enherited Charlie as well as Renee's estate. Can't wait for more!

  14. oh god that was good, cant wait for more :)

  15. whoah that was sooo good
    it was soo sweeet and pasionate at the same time
    i loved it

  16. Awesome update! I am concerned about all the things previously mentioned: ice cream left out (ice cream period), no condom, Carlisle (not gonna be happy). I can't wait for more. But, I am digging the love between E & B.

  17. OMG - AWESOME is all I can say about the feelings & emotions running through Edward towards Bella now :)

    The Ice Cream container & no mention of a condom - now.... was this meant to be forgotten (both items) or a plot to get Bella in trouble &/or to get her pregnant?!?!?!

    Carlisle isn't going to be happpppyyyyy.... don't want to be there Edward & Bella when Carlisle returns!!! GET OUT NOW!!!! DO NOT FALL ASLEEP!!!! Would Carlisle just barge into Edward's room to see what is going on? Hmmm.... I don't know!

    Can't wait to find out more... thanks for the update!

  18. Mic, I loved it. I soooo was not sure how far they would take it.. but was soo happy that this their first time with each other.. was so passionate.. that she trusted him enough to let him prove himself to her... The thoughts that he was thinking.. were soo gentle.. and honest.. no where did i see the ego/sadistic man that his father had wanted him soo desperately to be... BRAVO Mic. loved it.

  19. It was important for that to be in EPOV I think...Now I believe it was genuine.

    and I agree with everyone else. Maybe Carlisle will lose interest. Maybe He'll think Bella's dirty.

    Or worse, what if he gets so mad he doesnt allow them to marry which in turn forces them to run away, causing more beatings on poor Esme.

    I never thought I waould Ever say this but Carlisle needs to die. It's the only way to end Happy. I mean I don't see him suddenly waking up one morning, having a life changing epiphany and saying "good morning family I'm good now. I don't want to beat my wife or fuck Bella up the ass can trust me now."

  20. AH! I have been dying for an update, and oh man, did you deliver. I figured this was coming next, such a huge and important step in their relationship (and the plot), and you did such an excellent job with it all. I love how taking out the ice cream was what sealed the deal! Now that Bella and Edward are sure in each other we just have Carlisle left to worry over. I can't wait to see what you have in store next.

  21. Loved it... Carlisle is going to shit enough bricks to build a mansion.

  22. uh oh what if carlisle finds the ice cream or if bella gets preggars

  23. I'm glad to see Edward's really appreciating the differences love can make.

    I'm glad E let Bella dictate when they were ready to move forward. I was worried he'd refuse, saying they needed to wait until they were married.

    I guess the only things that concern me now are 1) I really hope B doesn't get pregnant. She has so much life to live! Especially now that she has a newfound appreciation for freedom and free thinking women. I think it would be best to wait for kids. And 2) Now Carlisle, Marcus and Demetri might think she's damaged goods. Will they still want her? I'm guess Carlisle will ...and I have a feeling Demetri will too... Also, once Carlisle finds out will he think it's ok for him and Demetri to have her as well?

    Thanks for the update!

  24. What a great chapter. Thanks so much for the update. I love that Edward didn't want to take control, he wanted Bella to have control in how things went in the bedroom.. I love that Bella can truly see that Edward is not going to act like Carlisle... However I thought that she was supposed to be a virgin when they married(I thought Carlisle would check).. This is going to piss off Carlisle, however, I think it will make Edward 100 times more protective over Bella.. he is truly in love with her and WILL NOT be sharing her with anyone.. I love how Edward has changed.. he is putting Bella, her feelings, her needs ahead of his own.. I love it. Mic - great job ...

  25. Everyone is mentioning the lack of a condom...but I thought Carlisle put her on birthcontrol??? And Edward is a doctor, I'm sure he could easily supply her the morning after pill.

  26. Amazing :) I loved it :) Hopefully Carlisle won't come home at this time. That would be a mess. He would be so angry.

  27. Awww, Well worth the wait fr Edward..still worried about carlisle though....


  28. Loved this chapter!
    -Carlisle is going to flip out. I don't think he'll loose interest as now seeing her avaliable to take. He could easily for himself on her, in the right enviornment, and it become a she said, he said battle.
    -I think it's about time Bella tells Edward about his father. If she doesn't do it soon, the above will happen.
    -No condom is interesting, but I don't see Bella getting pregnant...yet.
    -Ice cream, just and added bad layer.

    Can't wait for the next update and I do love it being in the E&B POV's. Hopefully the visitors come soon, so we can be done with them already.

  29. What a great chapter bb!!! The love and passion between these two really is palpable now! Every chapter w/o the angst though makes me more and more nervous for when it comes...because it's inevitable :-/ Love the love and the lemon and the sweetness of the whole thing. Just amazing :)

    Thank you so much! Keep up the great work!

  30. So glad for the chapter update!!!! Can't wait to see where you take this next. I have no doubt Carlisle will be FUMING!

  31. GREAT JOB!!!!! I think you have surprised the hell out of everyone with this chapter. I was truly not expecting them to make love. That just goes to show how far they have come. Bella in trusting Edward and loving him. Edward turly changing and letting Bella have control over what they were doing.

    I am like the other readers...worried about the ice cream left out and Carlisle finding it. But maybe Esme will be back soon and put it up.

    I am NOT worried about Bella being pregrant. Is she not on birth control pills???? I would have thought that Carlisle put her on them when he examined her.

    As always, you have done a wonderful wonderful job with this story. Thanks for the update, but I can not wait for the next one. GREAT JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  32. So breathtakingly beautiful and sweet!

    But I'm really surprised that Edward was willing to go that far. I thought he was determined to wait until they were married. Will Carlisle be furious or will he think that now he can take her too? I'm so worried about what he's going to do.

  33. Wow!
    This really was some night for the two of them!
    But it is kind of sad, but also a testament to your wonderful writing how you get into such a mind set while reading this story that I cannot help but be a little afraid for who well find the forgotten icecream downstairs. I get really paranoid.
    But I did enjoy the way Bella was able to live her love physically this way. I'm so proud of her for letting the love heal her. :D
    Wonderful chapter! :)

  34. Thanks for the great update please update soon and I love this story I really hope it does not end any time soon. Thank You

  35. i'm pretty nervous for carlisle to find out about this! thanks for the great update!

  36. Oh my God! Finally I can post also a Comment for you! xD
    I love your story an every day I watch for a new Chapter. This Capter was really really great!
    I´m nervous when Aro, Demitri and the others from Alsaka visit the Cullens.
    So I hope you understand what I wrote, my english is not the best hihi!

    Greetings from Germany

  37. The love making was the total act of defiance towards Carlisle. And I loved it. He can't control them in anyway now.

  38. That was incredibly hot. Maybe now Big Papa C will leave them alone b/c Bella is no longer a virgin and he hates used goods. Maybe Bella will be pregnant and that will keep trouble away from her and Edward, but that brings another problem, will they want their child to be raised in such a horrible environment? Also a child would give big Papa C some leverage over Bella and Edward but I have a feeling Esme will have something to say about that.

  39. Great update. I worry that Carlisle is going to livid when he finds out and you know he will find out. She needs to tell Edward about Carlisle's threat because she is in so much more danger.

  40. loved this chapter :)

    so happy that their first time was so passion !
    they should have thought about the ice cream that they forgot down stairs , Carlisle is going to get pissed.

  41. I first started reading this story when it was first released on Your writing has incredibly improved, and the way the characters have grown is just...amazing! When we're first introduced to Edward, he is delusional. And now, here at chapter 44, he's changed dramatically. And you know what I really respect? Is that it took time, it took realisations and the other characters to help. It wasn't like "oh, we're in chapter 20 now, Edward's all good! Then we're going to kill Carlisle!"

    When I read this chapter in particular, I become a bit worried when they left the ice cream downstairs in the lounge room, because of Carlisle finding out (and the ice cream melting). And if Carlisle finds out Bella lost her virginity before the wedding, he's going to be somewhat angry, and then he's going to attempt to get Bella alone, to fulfill his 'promise'.

    You should really consider turning this into a proper novel. :)

  42. i'm happy that they finally reached this stage, but i don't think Carlisle will be mad at all. the sick bastard will probably be glad that he can rape her any way he wants now. he wont have any reason to hold back, bacause her verginity no longer exists.
    it's a bittersweet situation for poor Bella

  43. I'm pretty shocked Bella was so ready and willing this early on. I honestly thought she would wait, but I'm not saying there is anything bad about her not waiting any longer. She loves Edward and she knows that Edward loves her too so there isn't really any reason for Bella to wait. :)

    I noticed they didn't use a condom, but I'm not sure if that is significant or not. The ice cream on the other hand, I am very worried about Carlisle coming home and finding that. I really hope he doesn't use it as another excuse to punish Esme. :(

  44. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH! No way! Totally freakin shocker lmao Im really worried tho...Carlisles gonna be PIISSED! He did always say that once she wasnt a virgin he could have his wicked way with her *shutters* OOOH NO!! Im soo scared for her right now this will so not end well :(

  45. Oh, man. Forbidden foods and activities? Evil Carlisle is not going to be happy!

    Beautiful chapter!

  46. This went differently than expected. I even thought I had missed a chapter. We didn't get to witness the proposal!!!! At first I was confused, but then it all turned out to be just wonderful. What then needed, their time alone, just being Edward and Bella, enjoying each other's company and.... sharing a secret :)
    Was it the correct time? Depends on who you ask I guess. It wasn't what had been planned, but what felt right for them at the time. And to be honest, lately that's all they have been doing. Doing things as they want to and how it feels good for them. They are confident that they can handle the consequences and what ever may come their way.
    Carlisle, I assume, didn't know Edward was proposing, I guess if that might change his plans regarding the visit coming. Not to mention what happened, what would he say about that? I guess he probably won't be too happy about it.
    I would really like to know how the proposal went, and if he has already given her the car or not. She will be so excited.
    As usual, great chapter!!!
    And finally, Happy New Year ;)!!!!

  47. That was an awesome chapter. Edward really has changed for the better, and now he's getting the benefits from that. There first time was sweet and perfect. Let's hope they put the ice cream away, I would hate for Carlisle to throw a fit. Can't wait for more.

  48. Hey Mic !

    Thanks for the update. About B&E making love, I didn't see it coming. It was nice & sweet. Edward is most definitevely another man. But why did they forget to use a condom ? I guess Edward wouldn't matter too much to become a father, but Bella is just so young ... Like other girls, I was thinking about the ice cream : I hope Esme will hide it before Carlisle see it ;-)

    Concerning Bella's virginity, I think that the news will stay between them both. Edward will surely not allow his father to touch her in any way ... Now that there's true love between E&B, the only "thing" that will keep us close to Carlisle will be for Esme's sake. Perhaps, she could leave with her sons & her daughter-in-law, but I don't see carlisle let go her wife so easily.

    I'll wait for your next chapter impatiently ;-)

    Bye !


  49. I enjoyed this in EPOV. Edward truly loves Bella and sees the difference between taking and giving. I loved how Edward felt when Bella was giving herself to him, fully without conditons. He sees how much more being in love and loving brings to a relationship and sex. They have commtted themselves to each other.

    I like everyone else is concerned with what Carlisle will do once he finds out about the engagement and that Bella is no longer a virgin. Will he look at her as damaged goods or as a new recepticle for his enjoyment. I don't want to imagine that Carlisle will ever get his way with Bella. I have to believe that Edward will keep her from harm.

    Thank you for writing. marijee

  50. They've forgotten the ice cream, that's not good. Carlisle will find it, am I right?
    And they didn't use a condom, how silly are they? I mean, I love them bove, but thats so silly of them.

    (I'm not very good in English, so please ignore my grammatical mistakes;) )

  51. WOW! This was an awesome chapter!!!

  52. OH my, I wonder what daddy is going to say about that??? I say.....about time. I'm glad they finally found a life together. He just needs to get her the hell out of that house and as far away from Carlisle as he can. I can't wait for the next chapter. Thank you for sharing. BG24

  53. Wooo! Now I just hope Carlisle backs off/dies, and Bella gets pregnant! :D

  54. Absolutely amaizng darlin.... have I mentioned I'm freaking out cause the secret of teh flowers hasnt been revieled yet?

  55. This was an awesome Birthday present.....I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT!!!!!

  56. hmmm... I hope Bella gets pregnant. Edward will have more of an incentive to koeep her safe. Carlisle might get pissed, but I want that to happen so Edward can see Carlisle's true colors!

  57. That was so good. It was sweet and slow and so full of emotion.

  58. WOW! I havn't read this story for a while sense it wasn't on fanfic and I wasn't getting notifications... but now that I'm all caught up I can't wait for more... I can feel the drama that's going to happen soon I'm sure of it lol keep up the chapters they are awsomly wrote.

  59. ok now post about 5 chappies in a row and maybe just maybe i can breath again. wow, the shit storm that is going to hit the wall should be a good one. Can't wait! loves ya bb

  60. Did you know that I wasn't ready for this to happen?
    Though, I'm not disappointed the slightest bit. But, this is the first story I've ever read where I WANTED the characters to wait before having sex. Aint that a bitch? lol
    I really did love this chapter because it was Bella who decided and wanted more than Edward. I love how she just takes control of the situation and how Edward loves it.
    This isn't about sex, though, and I can entirely fathom that, which makes this chapter beautiful.
    I guess I can hold off on my 'Kill Carlisle' chants and bask in the glory that is loving Edward and Bella.
    I've read some comments about them not using condoms and I did notice that but it didn't throw me at all. People are asking if she'll get pregnant and all that.
    I have enough patience that I can honestly say that I can wait to see where this goes.
    Keep up the good work, love.
    Oh, and personally hit me up when it's a 'Beat The Shit Out of Carlisle' chapter. lol

    Much Love,

    Jasline Denise Devereaux a.k.a. J.D. Switz

  61. Hello, people? They didn't FORGET to use a condom!
    They're a couple!
    They never planned on using one anyway. Would it have been better for you all if they were married and didn't use a condom??
    We knew what this story was before this love making scene came about. Just go with the flow of the story. It is the author who gets to brings these characters to life! It is our job to support her in these decisions.

  62. I'm just worried if Carlisle finds out then he will have free reign with Bella and she won't be able to prove anything? Whereas before, her hymen was still intact....

  63. Aww that was sweet, and unexpected. I thought for sure we'd be in for some Carlisle drama this chapter, but this was better!

  64. Wow. I absolutely adored this. Edward's thoughts about the difference between being serviced due to submission, and due to showing love - brilliant. You can "train" someone to do what they want, but when they really, truly want to do it, it is not the same thing at all. I am so glad that Edward has now experienced this difference firsthand.

    And Bella, trusting him enough and loving him enough to take this step, was wonderful. His concern and gentleness, and the pure love they had between them just added to everything.

    The proposal, ice cream and the virginity are my biggest worries. Hopefully, Esme would get home before Carlisle and deal with the ice cream? But the virginity... if Carlisle finds out, I tend to agree with a lot of other commenters - he now has a "ticket", if you will - there would be no "evidence" of him raping her, should he so choose.

    The proposal? Oh, Daddy C is gonna be pissed. Seriously pissed.

    So, we wait for the other shoe to drop. Marcus and Demetri haven't shown up yet, but we know they will...

  65. Holy Cow! Wasn't expecting that! I have to say that was PERFECT! In the same night, they got engaged, she confessed her love to him, and they shared that love in every possible way! Thank you for Edward getting to be her first. I was afraid Carlisle was going to hurt her before she and Edward could be together! This was a truly beautiful chapter!

  66. Beautiful, Sensational, Fantastic..
    This was quite the moment and I'm so happy it happened for them at this time. Grateful also that it was in EPOV, that made it even more of a momentum, to see the changes he and Bella have been through to have progessed to this point is triumphant to me.
    I'm gonna bask in this beautiful moment until Carlisle messes it up.
    Damn, if there was ever a time I would pray for a pregnancy it would now deseparately..
    But let's see what you have planned for us..
    You are amazing....
    Thanks for this....

  67. Oh my God! I love this story. Its wonderful chapter. I am very curious of carlisle's reaction. i hate him and i hope that he'll be very angry. I'm from Poland and Polish readers love your story. Sorry for my mistakes:)

  68. OMFG!!! Now Carlisle is going to be hell pissed off!!! I can't wait to see what bad things he would do now that Rosalie is starting to feel bad because of her pregnancy (she can not serve Emmett to please Carlisle demandings), Esme is not going to be home for him either, Bella and Edward make love for the first time with no condom usage (GREAT!), they left the TV on and the ice cream (ICECREAM!!!) melting on the coffee table!!!

    Excellent chapter!!!!!!! I can't wait for more!!

  69. What a wonderful chapter filled with love in between what I'm sure will be a shit sandwich. Especially when Carlisle comes home to melting ice cream, no dinner and no Esme.
    Great job with this one. I think we all needed a little bit of warm, happy sweet nothings kind of chapter before the rest...

  70. awesome update.

    I couldn't stop thinking about the freakin' ice cream container! Right now, i am hoping Bella wakes up and removes the evidence. I guess they could chalk it up to Edward allowing the ice cream that night and pretend like they had just bought it?

    i wonder if carlisle will take it upon himself to punish Bella. nah, edward wouldn't let it happen.

    i am hoping that Bella clues in Edward to what is up with Carlisle cuz shit is about to hit the fan.

    whatev's on the whole condom thing... seriously there are bigger fish to fry.

  71. I love this story but this chapter was a bit weird to me. It seemed like they were totally different characters, I don't know maybe because there has not been an update in a long time. I was just a bit dissapointed that Bella was so sexed up and that they did not wait to have sex until their wedding night. Just weird for me.

  72. wonderful description of those beautiful moments........Plz update soon.....

  73. Like all the others before me, I'm very surprised that they made love. It's wonderful that Bella has blossomed under this new side of Edward and she is able to trust him enough to give herself to him. And I'm so proud of him for recognizing the difference.

    Can't wait to see what happens next!

  74. She might get in trouble for doing this before the wedding... hope not.. but I'm pretty sure Carlisle won't be happy if he finds out
    Anyway, I am soooo happy for them! He was so sweet and loving through it all! He deserved that she gave herself to him

  75. Hey!
    I looove your story!! it's sooo exciting!!
    Carlisle is horrible and so scared! eurk! ><
    Above all that he plans something to Bella without talking with Edward!!
    Besides, i'm a french girl so i do not quite understand something : the Cullens will go to see Demetri and Marcus, or Demetri and Marcus will go to see the Cullens??Oo
    I look forward to more!!!
    (besides, do you have a specific day to publish? Otherwise, i will often visit your website!)


    PS: i have an account on (and my nickname is Puky on ! I knew your great story with the French translation of Edward-Cullen-Addict! But i was too impatient to wait the following in French! That's why, i decided to read the original version!=D
    [sorry for my bad English!!--']

  76. I can't believe I missed this post. I might as well have been out of the country for where I was at the time, and just got back in gear to check my posts outside of FF. This was phenomenal and completely unexpected. So worth it though. I loved it. Bella has come a long way. I can't wait to click the next button and read the next chapter!

  77. Finally got to the bottom of the long list. The consensus seems to be worried about the lack of a condom.... With Edward being in the final year of his residency, he is a fully licensed MD. He can prescribe the morning-after pill if they so desire. In most states, Bella could actually get the morning-after pill from the pharmacy without a prescription since it is her eighteenth birthday.

    The bigger picture, however, remains with the fact that Carlisle hasn't revoked the adoption, yet. In reality, Edward and Bella are brother and sister, by law, even if not by birth. If Carlisle should find out, he could hold the threat of incest over Edward's head. Hopefully, Edward will refuse to have Carlisle examine Bella ever again, 1)because he knows for certain that she isn't a virgin so there is no need for the exam, and 2) because he is also a MD and is certainly capable of performing said exam personally. There is no need for his father to perform the exam in his stead like there was the first time when he wasn't present in town.

    Now, finally, what is the confounded secret of the garden??????

  78. Please, please please update soon!! I hope that poor Bella doesnt get prego cuz she has gone through so much and although a baby would help bring her and edward closer together, she still would have to live with the fear that it might be a girl that could possibly go through the same pain that she went through and i dont really think that Bella would like that. But there is also the problem of Carlisle, he very well pull the incest factor but another problem with that is that if bella ever chooses to tell edward about what carlisle said he would do to her, that would be considered harassment which could if enough evidence and a strong enough case pull carlisle behind bars. that would make all of the problems in the book go away, but without problems what is life?

  79. please update soon!!!! please please please =(

  80. Wow! What changes are taking place with the boys!! Carlisle is one sick daddy. I can't imagine him wanting to "have" the daughter of the woman that he supposedly loved. How can you do that? Of course it does make for one heck of a story, doesn't it?

    Looking forward to your next update!!!

  81. Carlisle will find the ice cream, won't he? UGGGHHHHHHH! Let him ruin it all! Makes me mad :(

  82. Update soon! I love this story hope b gets preggers soon

  83. This chapter was lovely and all. It truly was. Their love making was beautiful, but I can't help the fear that looms now. Will Carlisle know that she is no longer a virgin? Will he vaginally rape her now? I just....idk...You set this up to be so sweet and I know more terrible shit is on the way for Bella. This was a great story, and thank you for the words.